A Wall of Guns
Holden Logan’s Ambitions for a Career Leads him to Owning a Wall Full of Nerf Guns

Holden Logan ’21 had just been blinded, a flashbang had gone off. He started shooting blindly, hoping to hit something. However, to his dismay, he got a shot in the stomach, a look of shock falls across his face for a second, then he falls to the ground, then dies. “Dang it!” he shouts as he drops his controller onto the ground, he had just lost his team the match.

For most of Logan’s life, he’s been obsessed with video games related to guns. Some games he owns are “Rainbow Six Siege”, “Fallout 4”, “Farcry 4”, and “The Division”. If you were to look through his collection, you wouldn’t find a single game that isn’t a first person shooter. However, there is a reason behind his collection of Nerf guns and the types of games he owns. He wants to become a police officer when he grows up.

Although the Police Force doesn’t have the pure enforcing feel to them anymore, Logan wants to become a police officer. “I always felt like I want to be a good person and help people. I know there’s other things you can do, but I don’t feel like I’d be doing myself a favor.”

Logan believes that the police force knows what they’re doing, and understands why they don’t go for their taser every time. “Tasers don’t deploy properly every time, which is why they don’t reach for them every time. Every bullet matters when you’re a police [officer], which is why they aim for a deadly spot rather than a hand or a foot.”

Logan watches videos on police officers every day, trying to learn what to do in each situation, training himself before the actual orientation. “I’ve watched videos where people die, but in actual training it’s going to be the police officer that dies, and that scares me.”

To Logan, one of the setbacks of becoming a police officer is his fear of death, which is the worst thing he can think of. “Death is just eternal nothingness, and that’s scary, knowing I’m not going to be around. It unsettles me.”

While only 135 out of 700,000 police officers die a year according to the FBI, death still scares Logan. “I know that not many people die in the police force, but it’s a possibility. I don’t think I’ll ever overcome it, but I’ll get better with it.”

While the police aren’t look up upon in as bright a light as they once were, there are still those who look up to the police force, and strive to protect others. These are the people who will challenge the controversy and perhaps even rid the world of it one day.